December 30, 2009

Year End Reflections

It is once again time to turn the page on the calendar and try to write the correct year on my checks. 2010. Memories come and go with the changing of the decades. I still remember being in the 6th grade and having to write the year as 1960 instead of 1959 - and that is 50 years ago! This year, however, I have had to learn to write 60 instead of 59 in the box labeled "age."

I turned 60 a couple of months ago. As another writer put it earlier this year, "
I find myself mystified by reaching that milestone, for two reasons. First is that 60 always has sounded “really old” to me, even though I know and respect lots of folks who are way past 60 and who exhibit very youthful lives and thinking. Knowing those folks should help me to understand that 60 is not really old, but somehow that number 60 still sounds old to me. So I am mystified to be “old” because the calendar says I am 60. Second is that I don’t know if I really “feel like I am 60.”

The year ends with our family having all been on vacation. School is out for the kids and they have been home and we have enjoyed some family time together playing Euchre, going the movies ("Blind Side" was great), shopping and just being together for meals. Soon the kids will be back to their own homes and jobs, but I will begin the year on a 3-month sabbatical - to rest, renew, and reflect.

I have made some plans for this sabbatical time tha
t includes travel, reading, study, projects and fun. But I hope to also spend time reflecting on life as it has been and life as it will be. What will this decade bring? Who am I becoming as I grow older and perhaps wiser? How
are my priorities in life changing? What do I want to do when I grow up or with the time I have left? I do believe that God is not yet finished with me and all that I might yet become.

Someone, I don't know who, once said:
“You are not just the age you are, you are all the ages you have ever been.” That seems to be true. At times I act live a 5-year old or a teenager or a 30 something young adult. And I must confess that at times I feel like a 60-year-old.

So bring on the new year! I'm ready for the year and decade that begins Friday. May it be as full and rewarding as the first 60 years have been. And may I remain open to all God has in store for me in the coming year and the decade ahead.